Pheww.. this year is a quite stressful year for me..even though it just started. For the past 2 months (n looks like I'm going to stay in the same situation in the coming month(s)), I've been financially unstable. What an announcement. -sob- I moved from my previous room to another one due to the reason that the owner of the house refused to rent out their house to anyone anymore. Oh that's fine but ridiculously they gave us less than one month to move out. -damn- The worries of not being able to find a room ended when we found our room now, not far from where we last stayed. It costs me more than RM1000 for everything.. The rent, deposits, bed n mattress and kitchen utilities. Thanks to dad, mum n sis for the money.. I owe u all a lot...-hugs- I promised myself that I will pay u guys back once I start working.
Talking about work..it reminds me of my bf's experience as a worker. I know he hates the job so freaking much but he hold on to it only for the sake of the salary which can be considered as quite good. Good enough for a student. I never like his job at the first place. Not only he has to deal with the workloads that requires him to stay at the office even though it's already past working hour (6pm..7pm..8pm..9pm..10pm..), he also has to deal with the boss personal 'business' such as helping him to pay the tickets, pay the house bills(!!!) blah3.. Crappy job,fine. But, crappy colleagues that only know how to be 'boss's fave' is totally not fine. Proof? Not one, not two, but quite a number of her colleagues quited their job because they couldn't stand her being so bossy and no one really knows what she did to 'cover the boss's eyes' from reality. I guess it's true that some people will do anything..i mean ANYTHING to get what they want. So, don't blame others for the rumors. Been waiting and waiting and waiting for my bf to quit his job. I know in his position now, it's ain't easy to find other job with good salary but life and happiness is important too,ain't it? So far, I can conclude that money is not everything. He works his ass off to get money but depressed almost all the time. Common line which I also heard often from my sis n some of my working friends--"Working = No life"--. Seriously? If it's too bad that u can't bear it any longer, then, just quit the 'eFFing' job n find others than can give u even a lil bit of space to live your life. I'm pretty sure, with your abilities, the current company isn't the only one in the world that needs u. Don't wait till u go nuts. It will be too late by then. As for my bf, I hope that your business plan will work out well. Your plan have the potential to succeed, just hope things will work out for the kickstart part! Nothing much I can do to help but you'll always have my prayers with you. -xoxo-
It really makes me wonder sometimes why life is so unfair. That certain people are born in a wealthy family, they get the opportunity to further their study, waste their parents money and so on. Somehow, in the other hand, some people are born disable, in a poor or lower-class family that they don't have any chance to do anything. Who is there to be blamed? Why is it that everyone doesn't get the same chance in life at the first place then only after that it is up to them to pick their own path to their own future. If this is the case, world would be a better place for everyone, right? Hrmm.. Life is full with such things. Hopefully God will help those in need out there..
Certainly, I'm also who I am now because of my love one, who helped me a lot, who shows me love, who taught me (implicitly) that nothing is impossible in this world. -hugs- That I can make my own choice and be happy with it.I learned to act and not to keep everything to myself. I learned to speak my words, became more cheerful and most of all, became more confident with myself. I learned to speak my rights, neglect unnecessary things and love unconditionally.